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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Who I am...

The past few weeks have been strangely poignant for me. I've been all over the place and nowhere at the same time. And it's all been taking place in my head. Please don't think I'm crazy. Well, I am but, I like to think of it as a healthy crazy. You see, I've been trying to define myself. Really get to the core of me. Who I am. What I stand for. Where I come from. What's my look. What's my style. And it's been incredibly humbling. For a second there, I kinda got lost. I was thinking way too much about being the coolest, stylish, most awesome me that I was forgetting the best part. I was forgetting to actually be me.

Last week, over wine, red velvet cupcakes and some amazing friends, I had a thought. This is the me I want to capture - the giggles, the honesty, the comfort, the unabashed interest in seeing through to another person's heart. I'd take a picture if I could but then you couldn't hear my childish laugh. You couldn't smell my color-extend shampoo. You couldn't feel my warm hugs. That is when I realized it. I can't possibly define me. I have to just BE me. And that's all I can ever do.

What I'm trying to say is if you want to hear about my battles with chocolate, my obsession with old Roseanne episodes, and my high-school style romance with my husband, then stay tuned. All of this thinking is for something in the works that is super close to my heart. It's me. And I can't wait to share it. In the meantime, I want everyone to remember to be the best YOU you can be. It's all we've got!

19 comments:

Kelly said...

beautifully written. i needed that right now. thanks :)

Alisa Greig said...

i love this post! so true, something for me to really think about, thank you for sharing. and i LOVE your amazing talent and photos as well :)

Diandra Ann said...

Ala I love this post! I was just going through this same process... funny how that works!

And for the record... I absolutely adore YOU!

~~JAZ~~ said...

Thank you for that Ala, I so needed to hear that today!!! You're such an inspiration.

Harmony Loves said...

Amazing, beautiful, and perfection!

Joe and Kathrina Photography said...

I love it. We've never met but I follow your blog and twitter and seriously, you make me laugh and love you without ever having met. That's truth right there. And it may not matter to you since you have no idea who I am, but I think you're awesome.

Mary Dunlap said...

LOVE every word. All of it is true. Like many others, we haven't met yet...but just following your blog, you make us want to know you and share in your talent as a photographer and a person. Thank you for your insight/take on the most important things in life....

Catie Ronquillo said...

Thanks for the reminder girl! It's so true. I have to be me. I don't have to the the coolest/bestest/wittiest/funniest out there, just me. Love what you wrote. For serious.

Kayleen T. Photography said...

Great post!! Oh, I love your hair color btw! haha....I'm always on the hunt for the perfect mauve color. What color extend shampoo do you use? reds fade so fast!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for this post!! I love your honesty and obsession with chocolate!! It comes a close 2nd to mine!!
Although I have never met you, you talk alot through your pictures.
Thank you for the reminder to just be me!!
Much Love from Australia,
Kyrene

Tia Brumbelow said...

Well said! What a great message to us all =)

Evie Perez said...

Girl, thanks for speaking the truth. We can get so caught up in being someone we are not and forget who we really are. Thanks again and Amen to that sistah.

. s h e r r y * said...

Such beautiful words.. Thanks for sharing! Oh, and I love that photo :) It's almost like I can hear your laugh!

Natalie Michele said...

You couldn't have said it any better. I think you are an amazing photographer & woman...I too follow your blog & twitter and love how real you are! Goofiness, quirkiness and all...its the core of you. =) Hopefully one day our paths will cross on my journey to become a wonderful photographer like YOU!

Cassie Schott said...

What a great post! I've been following your blog for awhile and have never commented, but felt compelled to because I really love that you always seem to write in a way that is just so real. I feel like I know you.

Plus I just watched like three hours of Roseanne reruns while battling insomnia last night...so there ya go.

Haha, love your photography! :)

Jasmine said...

PREACH ON!!! :)

i love u.

V3 Weddings and Events said...

Well said! And double Amen to that! We love you, be you ;)

Angela Mae Photography said...

You are the cutest person ALIVE! Such an inpiring post! The Smith Family MISSES YOU!

XoXo
Angela

ajira said...

You are so right. In some ways being yourself, authentically and wholeheartedly, is the hardest and easiest thing to do. All at once. It's a beautiful thing though, just beautiful. That image of you is one of my favourites by the way. You're gorgeous!